and really i’m so tightly wound you wouldn’t believe it.  i fidget or tap things with my fingernails or my leg is vibrating.  i pick at my cuticles until they bleed, and then i pick at the scabs.  my eye is twitching, my mouth is twitching.  i clench my jaw, unaware of it until it hurts.  my teeth grind when i’m awake.

when i move my neck, i can hear the muscles scrape.