it has occurred to me today that i haven’t the slightest idea what it is i’m doing.  seemingly small decisions made in haste come to stand for my irrevocable position on subjects and occurrences of monumental importance to me.  and even small decisions made in haste are decisions the larger implications of which cannot be reneged.  so as a direct result of those decisions i am frozen in place, stuck in a cold block of actions taken out of boredom and curiosity.

“i’m dubious, but i don’t welsh.”