3/18/2001

wow, it’s over.  sxsw, spring break, everything.  tomorrow i go back to school and reading and writing and listening, spending hours on couches and in coffeehouses, and sometimes on couches in the coffeehouses.  i thought spring break existed so that one can recover from school, but i think i need to recover from this spring break itself.

when i left the airport this morning in my brand-new orange rubber shoes, it felt really strange.  i’ve spent over a week doing important fun things with large and small groups of wonderful people.  there have been panels and parties and dinners and drinks and conversation and ferries and beaches and amusement parks and hot dogs and lengthy jokes with no punchline and abandoned aquariums with graffiti and torrential rain and friends and love.  so, now what?  what am i to do with myself by myself?  it occurs to me now that i just might be boring.

at any rate, i put up some sxsw photos and stuff, which are fun.  i have about eighty-twelve thousand emails in my inbox.  if one of them is yours, fear not, for i will get to it soon enough.  and speaking of email, i think that there are still some things missing from the Great Disk Crash of March 14, so let me know if you get any 404s or whatever.

or whatever.  nothing to do but go to bed, i guess.

3/15/2001

On March 14, 2001 our server suffered a hard disk failure.  We are currently restoring files from backup.  At this point some files and databases are not restoring correctly.  We will have full staff all night long to aid in resolving your problems.

jeez. i leave for a few days and everything goes haywire.  i also can’t get my email, so if you’ve sent me anything since march eighth, i assure you i’m not aware of it.  and if you get any 404s or broken images and things, i’m not aware of that, either, and you can’t email to tell me about it.

anyway, i didn’t win, but i had such a great time that i’m not bothered by it at all.  as i said to someone, i’d rather lose and have fun than win and not have fun.  so it’s good, yeah?  yeah.  i don’t think i have the time or the energy or the wherewithal to be able to describe to you just how awesome and wonderful and fun it all was.  and really, i’m not sure i want to; because i don’t think it would work.  it just was.

i doubt i’ll be writing too terribly much over the rest of spring break; my jet-set lifestyle simply won’t allow it, you know.  but i’ll be around.  thanks to rabi for writing stuff and things while i was gone. she is awesome, too.

oh.  and this really happened.

3/13/2001

nevermind. I don’t like knowing who won, because it was all the wrong things. whatever.

today I ate lunch with a whole bunch professors, of the physics and astronomy and computer science persuasions. they’re all geeks, but that’s okay because I’m one too. still, there was something almost not real about my life at that moment, being the only kid at a table full of conversation about the meaning of trig functions and whether or not it’s forgivable to mix up madeline l’engle with ursula k. leguin, making fun of the people who grade my midterm exams and letting them make fun of me. and then we walked back to the science building together, where I spend the afternoon working in the research lab alongside my astronomy professor. so I was very mixed up.

someday I suppose I am going to be one of the adults, grading midterms and writing lesson plans, and I suppose if I’m lucky I’ll have a whole bunch of geek friends who will go to lunch with me. but I hope I don’t remember thinking this, because I hate watching my life go in circles, even when I see it from the other side. (r)