what if i can’t get everything moved properly? what if everything breaks or gets lost? what if i have to tow my entire apartment in a u-haul behind my acura? that can’t be good for the car.
what if i throw away something i’m going to want later?
while maude’s staying with my parents, what if they don’t sing her the maudezilla song? or the other maudezilla song? or worse (and even more likely since i made it up), what if they don’t sing her the “i love the puppy / she’s better than a guppy” song, and she forgets how it goes? i sing her that one all the time.
what if i don’t get the chance to say goodbye to everyone?
a year ago today i went to the spca and got myself a four-year-old chihuahua. she was bewildered and terrified and filthy, and she didn’t seem to like me very much. here’s the first photo i ever took of her.
and here’s a photo i took of her last night. she’s not usually wearing clothes, and the wink was purely accidental, but i still think it’s a good representation.
she looks better, doesn’t she? she’s (mostly) clean, her coat is all soft and shiny, and above all, she’s happier. everyone who has known her over the past year remarks on how much her behavior’s improved. she prances around with her tail up most of the time, and she (almost) never shrinks down into herself when she meets new people anymore.
the first week she was here, it felt strange to have another living thing around. i wondered if i’d get used to maude being there, if i’d ever stop feeling like i wasn’t alone in my apartment because of a tiny dog. a year later, i don’t know what i’d do without her.
happy anniversary, maude.