the catch-22s

i’d feel better if i had a job, but most of the time i’m too depressed to look for one, and my rare interviews are always fruitless, which depresses me.

i’m pretty disillusioned with the corporate world, but the things i want to do on my own require money, which i might have if i got a job in the corporate world, in which case i wouldn’t have time to do those things.

i’d feel better if i could go to therapy, but my health insurance won’t cover it.  i could get better health insurance if i had a job (see above).

in order to sell the clothes i make, i need to take proper pictures of them, but i can’t afford a dressmaker’s form to put the clothes on because i haven’t sold any clothes.

i’d feel better if i left the house, but most of the time i’m too depressed to leave the house.

i’d feel better if i kept in touch with friends, but i don’t, because i don’t want them to know how badly things are going.

writing usually makes me feel better, but i’m too depressed to do it.