at this point, it’s all just math. in trying to make myself happy, how many people do i hurt at once? how many do i piss off? what’s the ratio of what i do to how hurt they are by what i do? if we plot my attempts to make everyone else comfortable on the x axis, and my own personal happiness on the y axis, do the two lines intersect? are they asymptotic? or do they just keep going on and on forever, exactly parallel, never even coming close to touching?