i watched, from underneath a giant, tiger-striped cowboy hat, as jonathan and veronica cooked things with basil in the kitchen, elissa played millipede, and rob, doug, and ellen discussed the fact that, in the backyard near the trampoline, there sat a cardboard box containing a dead cat.  i watched, from my place on the couch, as dave built an elaborate video-game skateboard park on the television screen, using controls made of chips and moulded plastic.  i watched, from a place far back behind my eyes, as jonathan and todd talked about the new radiohead album playing in the other room, beatbeatfuzz

my head is thick with mucus and frederick douglass.